Unhappy, Not Ill Transistor (https://transistor.fm) https://feeds.transistor.fm/unhappy-not-ill Join Vanessa and Este as they talk through Vanessa's 47-year long journey with mental illness, the good, the bad, and ultimately, finding her freedom. © 2025 Vanessa and Este 1453209b-2653-5d08-91aa-a4a396baeccc no Unhappy, Not Ill Trailer en Tue, 01 Oct 2024 14:13:55 +0000 Tue, 02 Dec 2025 23:19:17 +0000 https://img.transistor.fm/LMIuJoGqf8OpTjt51KckPCOzcebTIuJ7D3qmjBKW-Tg/rs:fill:0:0:1/w:1400/h:1400/q:60/mb:500000/aHR0cHM6Ly9pbWct/dXBsb2FkLXByb2R1/Y3Rpb24udHJhbnNp/c3Rvci5mbS9zaG93/LzI1ODQ3LzE2Mzcy/Mjc4MjEtYXJ0d29y/ay5qcGc.jpg Unhappy, Not Ill serial Vanessa and Este Join Vanessa and Este as they talk through Vanessa's 47-year long journey with mental illness, the good, the bad, and ultimately, finding her freedom. Join Vanessa and Este as they talk through Vanessa's 47-year long journey with mental illness, the good, the bad, and ultimately, finding her freedom. Mental Health Story Ninety-Four No No Unhappy, Not Ill Trailer 1 1 Unhappy, Not Ill Trailer trailer 05bc9701-8a4c-4c37-8d37-b8143928b08e https://share.transistor.fm/s/fb9321bc Welcome to Unhappy, Not Ill a podcast hosted by Vanessa and Este. They are on a mission to help mental health survivors become the architects of their best life, as they talk through Vanessa's 47-year long journey with mental illness, the good, the bad, and ultimately, finding her freedom.

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Welcome to Unhappy, Not Ill a podcast hosted by Vanessa and Este. They are on a mission to help mental health survivors become the architects of their best life, as they talk through Vanessa's 47-year long journey with mental illness, the good, the bad, and ultimately, finding her freedom.

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 12 Nov 2021 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 185 Join Vanessa and Este as they talk through Vanessa's 47-year long journey with mental health, the good, the bad, and ultimately, finding her freedom. Join Vanessa and Este as they talk through Vanessa's 47-year long journey with mental health, the good, the bad, and ultimately, finding her freedom. Mental Health No Story Ninety-Four Chapter 1: Unhappy, Not Ill 1 1 Chapter 1: Unhappy, Not Ill full 50f2ce58-787a-4e44-91ae-127c8104d59c https://share.transistor.fm/s/46caf395 Welcome to the first episode of Unhappy, not Ill - a podcast about mental illness hosted by Vanessa and Este. 

Vanessa has a story to share.  A story about her life journey battling clinical depression.  Este, her wife, joins her to co-host this podcast, as she has helped Vanessa open up and conquer her depression during their relationship. 

Este encouraged Vanessa to share her story.  They want to inspire people with similar conditions, to be the architects of their best lives. They do this by talking through Vanessa’s experience and discussing the tips from her journey. 

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Welcome to the first episode of Unhappy, not Ill - a podcast about mental illness hosted by Vanessa and Este. 

Vanessa has a story to share.  A story about her life journey battling clinical depression.  Este, her wife, joins her to co-host this podcast, as she has helped Vanessa open up and conquer her depression during their relationship. 

Este encouraged Vanessa to share her story.  They want to inspire people with similar conditions, to be the architects of their best lives. They do this by talking through Vanessa’s experience and discussing the tips from her journey. 

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Tue, 16 Nov 2021 19:19:27 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 1580 Vanessa has a story to share. A story of how she found her freedom after a life with depression. Vanessa has a story to share. A story of how she found her freedom after a life with depression. Mental Health No Story Ninety-Four Chapter 2: Growing Up 2 2 Chapter 2: Growing Up full 43b7ace1-ac56-4ef8-bf3d-3feec4946e91 https://share.transistor.fm/s/0700478f Picture perfect upbringings surely means you shouldnt suffer with depression? Vanessa busts that myth for you in this episode. As she takes you through her adolesence, you really get to understand the foundations of Vanessa's journey.

Action: Take 10 minutes and ask yourself - what signs is your body giving you today that you could learn from?

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Picture perfect upbringings surely means you shouldnt suffer with depression? Vanessa busts that myth for you in this episode. As she takes you through her adolesence, you really get to understand the foundations of Vanessa's journey.

Action: Take 10 minutes and ask yourself - what signs is your body giving you today that you could learn from?

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 26 Nov 2021 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 1777 Picture perfect upbringings surely means you shouldnt suffer with depression? Vanessa busts that myth for you in this episode. Picture perfect upbringings surely means you shouldnt suffer with depression? Vanessa busts that myth for you in this episode. Mental Health No Story Ninety-Four Chapter 3: Leaving Home 3 3 Chapter 3: Leaving Home full dad171fc-f80b-46ec-b3ff-65d05cd04d8b https://share.transistor.fm/s/407fa421 Leaving the comfort of home can be challenging for everyone, but even more so when suffering from depression. Vanessa takes you through the next stage in her life as she ventures out into the world to go travelling, work part-time, and to university.

Action: When facing a new decision, ask youself the question "is this somthing that I want to do?"

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Leaving the comfort of home can be challenging for everyone, but even more so when suffering from depression. Vanessa takes you through the next stage in her life as she ventures out into the world to go travelling, work part-time, and to university.

Action: When facing a new decision, ask youself the question "is this somthing that I want to do?"

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 03 Dec 2021 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 1752 Leaving the comfort of home can be challenging for everyone, but even more so when suffering from depression. Leaving the comfort of home can be challenging for everyone, but even more so when suffering from depression. Mental Health No Story Ninety-Four Chapter 4: Career 4 4 Chapter 4: Career full b7bf6af6-aa9f-4e3a-9d0f-37a7b5a3be65 https://share.transistor.fm/s/895f0561 After finishing University, Vanessa starts her career in Law, the career she's always wanted. But is it all she expected it to be? How does she cope as the pressure of work begins to pile up and depression sets in?

Action: What you are using to avoid and hide elements of your life from yourself?

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> After finishing University, Vanessa starts her career in Law, the career she's always wanted. But is it all she expected it to be? How does she cope as the pressure of work begins to pile up and depression sets in?

Action: What you are using to avoid and hide elements of your life from yourself?

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 10 Dec 2021 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 1684 After finishing University, Vanessa starts her career in Law, the career she's always wanted. But is it all she expected it to be? After finishing University, Vanessa starts her career in Law, the career she's always wanted. But is it all she expected it to be? Mental Health No Story Ninety-Four Chapter 5: Mental Illness 5 5 Chapter 5: Mental Illness full a37feb00-a38a-4a9a-8e9c-db0d7ce39957 https://share.transistor.fm/s/3eaf8cf0 In this emotionally heavy episode, Vanessa talks us through her experience of mental illness, her multiple diagnoses, hospitalisation and treatment. Vanessa also talks about her early signs of depression, and the difference between a mental health issue and mental illness.

Action: What signs does your body give you, and what in your environment is causing them?

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> In this emotionally heavy episode, Vanessa talks us through her experience of mental illness, her multiple diagnoses, hospitalisation and treatment. Vanessa also talks about her early signs of depression, and the difference between a mental health issue and mental illness.

Action: What signs does your body give you, and what in your environment is causing them?

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 17 Dec 2021 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 2025 In this emotionally heavy episode, Vanessa talks us through her experience of mental illness, her multiple diagnoses, hospitalisation and treatment. In this emotionally heavy episode, Vanessa talks us through her experience of mental illness, her multiple diagnoses, hospitalisation and treatment. Mental Health Yes Story Ninety-Four Chapter 6: Medication 6 6 Chapter 6: Medication full 1803ad17-2bf9-4667-ba5c-d3f77d9898c5 https://share.transistor.fm/s/54b72d3d Being unhappy is not situational, it runs much deeper. Vanessa was first prescribed "happy pills" in her late teens, and continued to take medication for her depression until the age of 46. In this episode Vanessa talks through the different medication and treatments she's had for her depression and the effect it had on her. 

If you don't feel, you won't deal. If you don't deal, you won't heal. 


To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Disclaimer: This is not medical advice. Consult you doctor for any advice regarding medication or treatments for depression.

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Being unhappy is not situational, it runs much deeper. Vanessa was first prescribed "happy pills" in her late teens, and continued to take medication for her depression until the age of 46. In this episode Vanessa talks through the different medication and treatments she's had for her depression and the effect it had on her. 

If you don't feel, you won't deal. If you don't deal, you won't heal. 


To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Disclaimer: This is not medical advice. Consult you doctor for any advice regarding medication or treatments for depression.

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 24 Dec 2021 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 1727 In this episode Vanessa talks through the different medication and treatments she's had for her depression and the effect it had on her. In this episode Vanessa talks through the different medication and treatments she's had for her depression and the effect it had on her. Mental Health No Story Ninety-Four Chapter 7: Relationships 7 7 Chapter 7: Relationships full ea6ab576-4167-4715-86bf-0c8acc2dd892 https://share.transistor.fm/s/2ee32e72 It's hard not to feel alone when you're depressed. Relationships play an important role in maintaining our mental health, but not all relationships are good for us. In this episode Vanessa talks about the different relationships she's had in her life, and how they supported her, or affected her.

Action: Ask yourself "what do I need right now?" and form a strong routine. 


To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> It's hard not to feel alone when you're depressed. Relationships play an important role in maintaining our mental health, but not all relationships are good for us. In this episode Vanessa talks about the different relationships she's had in her life, and how they supported her, or affected her.

Action: Ask yourself "what do I need right now?" and form a strong routine. 


To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 07 Jan 2022 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 1941 It's hard not to feel alone when you're depressed. Relationships play an important role in maintaining our mental health, but not all relationships are good for us. It's hard not to feel alone when you're depressed. Relationships play an important role in maintaining our mental health, but not all relationships are good for us. Mental Health No Story Ninety-Four Chapter 8: My Way 8 8 Chapter 8: My Way full aab9dfe2-1857-4588-80bd-06b6b2070892 https://share.transistor.fm/s/f37518a0 After pushing through the worst stages in her life, Vanessa found her way. But how did she do it? In this episode, Vanessa talks about coming out of the coma of depression, and the important steps she took to move forward. 

Vanessa's way won't be the same as your way, but hopefully it will inspire you to find yours. 

Action: If you find yourself doing the same thing, and falling into the same situations. Stop it, and change it. If it doesn't work, change it again. 


To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> After pushing through the worst stages in her life, Vanessa found her way. But how did she do it? In this episode, Vanessa talks about coming out of the coma of depression, and the important steps she took to move forward. 

Vanessa's way won't be the same as your way, but hopefully it will inspire you to find yours. 

Action: If you find yourself doing the same thing, and falling into the same situations. Stop it, and change it. If it doesn't work, change it again. 


To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 14 Jan 2022 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 1850 After pushing through the worst stages in her life, Vanessa found her way. But how did she she do it? After pushing through the worst stages in her life, Vanessa found her way. But how did she she do it? Mental Health No Story Ninety-Four Chapter 9: True Love 9 9 Chapter 9: True Love full f86dd6fb-d39c-4f70-a443-1fc90b4f4603 https://share.transistor.fm/s/3a310e13 You'll never find anyone to love you, until you love yourself. Vanessa didn't love herself and she had come to terms with that. Then along came Este. In this episode, Vanessa talks about finding true love, even after she'd given up on it.  

Action: Find someone that has your back, both if you suffer with a mental illness, or if you're supporting someone with a mental illness. Create a support network to help when times are tough. 


To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> You'll never find anyone to love you, until you love yourself. Vanessa didn't love herself and she had come to terms with that. Then along came Este. In this episode, Vanessa talks about finding true love, even after she'd given up on it.  

Action: Find someone that has your back, both if you suffer with a mental illness, or if you're supporting someone with a mental illness. Create a support network to help when times are tough. 


To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 21 Jan 2022 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 1934 Vanessa talks about finding true love, even after she'd given up on it. Vanessa talks about finding true love, even after she'd given up on it. Mental Health Yes Story Ninety-Four Chapter 10: The Climax 10 10 Chapter 10: The Climax full 94ac780f-d5f7-4a24-ae8d-176eec25fd46 https://share.transistor.fm/s/c8d65bfb If you don't listen to your body, your body will stop you eventually. After years of dismissing the mental signs, Vanessa's body hit her hard with the physical signs. In this episode, Vanessa takes us through the physical effects her body ensured from the result of her mental health.  


Action: Trust your body, and your body will trust you back. Read the signs of your body, and take action - don't ignore them.


To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> If you don't listen to your body, your body will stop you eventually. After years of dismissing the mental signs, Vanessa's body hit her hard with the physical signs. In this episode, Vanessa takes us through the physical effects her body ensured from the result of her mental health.  


Action: Trust your body, and your body will trust you back. Read the signs of your body, and take action - don't ignore them.


To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 28 Jan 2022 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 1891 In this episode, Vanessa takes us through the physical effects her body ensured from the result of her mental health. In this episode, Vanessa takes us through the physical effects her body ensured from the result of her mental health. Mental Health No Story Ninety-Four Chapter 11: My Freedom 11 11 Chapter 11: My Freedom full 96f8cef0-f1ae-4028-8854-cf1c608da313 https://share.transistor.fm/s/4a41a45a What is my freedom? How can you find your freedom? After recovering from the physical effects caused by her mental health, Vanessa left her corporate role and embarked on a period of self-discovery - questioning societal norms and expectations. In this episode, Vanessa shares the conscious choices she made to explore new places, new ideas, and new tribes, which ultimately led to her finding her freedom. 

Action: Find time for me time, which stands for:

  • Meditate
  • Energise
  • Think 
  • Inspire 
  • Move
  • Educate

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> What is my freedom? How can you find your freedom? After recovering from the physical effects caused by her mental health, Vanessa left her corporate role and embarked on a period of self-discovery - questioning societal norms and expectations. In this episode, Vanessa shares the conscious choices she made to explore new places, new ideas, and new tribes, which ultimately led to her finding her freedom. 

Action: Find time for me time, which stands for:

  • Meditate
  • Energise
  • Think 
  • Inspire 
  • Move
  • Educate

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 04 Feb 2022 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 2272 Vanessa shares the conscious choices she made to explore new places, new ideas, and new tribes, which ultimately led to her to finding her freedom. Vanessa shares the conscious choices she made to explore new places, new ideas, and new tribes, which ultimately led to her to finding her freedom. Mental Health No Story Ninety-Four Chapter 12: Reflections 12 12 Chapter 12: Reflections full 464dc75a-7cd9-4e08-8937-69cd7020ba8f https://share.transistor.fm/s/fff3e896 How has Unhappy, Not Ill affected Vanessa and Este? In this episode, Vanessa and Este reflect on the podcast and share their thoughts on the experience. Has the process resulted in new thoughts, ideas, and opinions on the events which occured throughout Vanessa's life? 

They also answer questions from the listeners and tease an exciting new chapter for the podcast. 

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Share your story in Season 2 of Unhappy, Not Ill

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]]> How has Unhappy, Not Ill affected Vanessa and Este? In this episode, Vanessa and Este reflect on the podcast and share their thoughts on the experience. Has the process resulted in new thoughts, ideas, and opinions on the events which occured throughout Vanessa's life? 

They also answer questions from the listeners and tease an exciting new chapter for the podcast. 

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Share your story in Season 2 of Unhappy, Not Ill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 11 Feb 2022 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 2552 In this episode, Vanessa and Este reflect on the podcast and share their thoughts on the experience. In this episode, Vanessa and Este reflect on the podcast and share their thoughts on the experience. Mental Health No Story Ninety-Four Season 2 of Unhappy, Not Ill Season 2 of Unhappy, Not Ill bonus 5a378104-e05a-4ceb-9c62-23f353b59a91 https://share.transistor.fm/s/cfa721ed Vanessa and Este will be back for Season 2 of Unhappy, Not Ill!

We believe that people need to share to dare. Dare to do one thing differently that they might not have thought of during their struggles. That is why we also want to encourage others to share their tips that have worked/are working, during their mental illness journey.

If you are coping with mental illness at the moment, have survived an epic mental illness episode and would like to share your journey to help others - then we would love to hear from you.

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Share your story in Season 2 of Unhappy, Not Ill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Vanessa and Este will be back for Season 2 of Unhappy, Not Ill!

We believe that people need to share to dare. Dare to do one thing differently that they might not have thought of during their struggles. That is why we also want to encourage others to share their tips that have worked/are working, during their mental illness journey.

If you are coping with mental illness at the moment, have survived an epic mental illness episode and would like to share your journey to help others - then we would love to hear from you.

To get in touch please follow us on instagram at @unhappynotill

Share your story in Season 2 of Unhappy, Not Ill

Produced by Story Ninety-Four in Oxford.

]]> Fri, 25 Feb 2022 01:00:00 +0000 Vanessa and Este Vanessa and Este 42 Vanessa and Este will be back for Season 2 of Unhappy, Not Ill! Vanessa and Este will be back for Season 2 of Unhappy, Not Ill! Mental Health No Story Ninety-Four